and honestly my mind is fully awake and alert and I hate it. I really should be half asleep and not aware of things around me but nope, everything is in my mind. I was so tempted to drive past my work and just keep driving.

But it was worth it :)

Night all!

Sometimes, after chasing for so long, it really is best to stop and see if they’re willing to come to you in return. If they don’t, well, you know they were never worth your effort to begin with. It’s a bitter disappointment, but better that than wasting any more of your precious time and affections.

Maybe I should think on that a bit for myself :/

Yesterday we spent the day cleaning my grandma’s house going through old memories  of both my grandparents trying to decide what we need to keep for my grandma for the little time she’ll have left when she gets back home.

then i finally got home and everyone like left and or went to bed ><

When my friend got back i got excluded so i offered to play another game with a friend so then the people excluding me and that friend went and played the game without cause my router died for like 5 minutes and they couldn’t wait. 

And then i told my friend how it seems she doesn’t seem to care, given the fact she knew where i was earlier in the day and didn’t really say anything to me after i got home. And it has been going on and such. And she seemed utterly shocked. Apparently she has no clue how self absorbed she has been.

Hours of homework through it all didn’t help either ><

glad it feels like a good day for someone. I feel like I got hit by a fucking mack truck.